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What is it in a name that makes us feel important? Are we hiding behind it? Or is it that we are escaping reality? Because we use names on social media that no mother would ever name her child. Where did the name come from? Is it a joke between friends? Maybe it came from some elaborate story, or even the frustration of rejected submissions. What does the name mean? It must have some value behind it. Why else use it? Names are wonderful things.

I remember living in a big blue house with a white picket fence. I was maybe four or five. I also remember staying at home with mom. She'd read to me and play games, and I would help her bake cookies. Dad was the one who worked. He'd come home around six, and I'd run up to him and he'd swing me around while I laughed. We were the perfect family. Well that is until he came. The strange man entered our lives around a year later. He was carrying a suitcase that mom called their supplies. He came over a lot and at first it wasn't so bad. Every now and then mom would ignore me or dad wouldn't swing me around like he normally did, but it got bad. M

When the world was created there were only three people who inhibited it. They had special jobs to carry out in order for things to work. The first one to be created was Mother Nature. She was beautiful and her job was to see that the world worked in harmony. She would later join forces with  Life. Life was a beautiful girl who glowed with brightness. She looked over the grass and the fish and much later on, people. For a long time Mother Nature and Life lived together in perfect harmony. But one day a new force was created. Death came into the world. He destroyed everything he touched. He'd accidently hurt life when he got to close. Mother

Zach looked around him disgusted by what he saw. But then again it would never change. The world would always be black and white with various shades of grey. It would always be void of color. He chuckled to himself. He didn't even know what color was... let alone believe it was something great. It was just a thing of the past. A thing that could only be found mentioned in history books. That and most emotions. Yes, they had the basics such as happiness and the ability to be sad, but they did not have things such as hate and love. These things were found in movies. Movies that contained various shades of grey. Hell, in Zach's world people wo

People don't realize exactly how scary it is to be a child. They expect you to grow up way too fast and support yourself. You're no longer supposed to be afraid of things like the dark or the closet. What if I told you it was okay? It's okay to be afraid. I'm afraid a lot. I'm afraid that I will come home and become another one of grandfather's forgotten memories, and that my mother may have just disappeared. I'm terrified that Bubbles will break his promise, and that little brother will follow my footsteps. I want to avoid the future, yet I don't want the past. I don't even want the present, but surely this fear will pass. No matter what t

Ricky- He acts kinda shitty towards people. He's afraid that if he let's people get close that they will leave him. After all he was abandoned by his parents at a young age, and he was forced to fend for himself. Don't fuck with Ricky. Chris(tina)- He went from a girl to a boy to feel comfortable. Only it bothered those around him. Bullied to extreme measures he saw no way out. He took his father's gun and put it to his head. He lives as a ghost now. Don't talk to Chris. CJ- It's short for Charles Jayden, the name given to him by his mother. Forced to watch her die, he grows up fast. Also he must fight for his life because of his father's b

Stop being ugly Write it on the board the teacher says I look up from my work "Don't be ugly like Kelsey." Teacher? Why would you choose to ignore the torment that happens everyday? The name calling? Them lying about me? Going out of their way to make me feel oh so down? Teacher? Is this what's right? To make a student not want to come to school? Not want to talk to anyone? To not want to live again? Teacher? I was on the brink of tears today. But then again you didn't notice that I'm being bullied.

Down down down I can't help it. Up up up It seems so perfect. Down down down Just another night of disappointment. Up up up Laughter brightening your day Down down down Being scared to go on Up up up Faking it everyday.

It’s too vivid. The memories that I’d rather forget haunt me. Maybe they’ll follow me for the rest of my life. Could I have deserved what happened? Am I really that crazy? I remember seeing things that weren't there. People actually. I remember trying to get them to leave me alone, but they would never leave. They’d laugh and move things around causing me to get in trouble at home. It was always the same routine. One day I had finally had enough and broke down in the dining room at dinner. I screamed at them to leave me alone and clutched at my hair as tears ran down my face. The look on my father’s face is some